|My Mom put this prayer board together with Scripture quotes and prayers for peace from the ladies at church! |
My own prayers over the past months for this labor and birth were typical of my others; I prayed for a fast and peaceful birth, where I would be giving thanks and worshipping God through it. I especially prayed for that moment in labor that I feared the most, transition, and I prayed that I would be able to face that moment without fear, and be victorious in laboring without losing control. I didn't want to fight the pain and be in fear about it, like I had with my first two births. My third homebirth had been so much easier when I labored in a meditative, worshipful state, and that is what I was aiming for in this birth as well. That I could remain silent, controlled, and at peace through each contraction. Surrendering to the flow of birth and the contractions and staying at peace, really seems to be the only way that labor is not as painful for me. It's still hard work though and very tiring to stay completely relaxed and meditative while my body does it's work!
|39 weeks and so ready to have my baby!|
|Amber, my friend and doula for this birth with me a few weeks before Russell was born!|
Something shifted, and I felt a bit of panic start to rise in my soul. The moment was coming- transition. The most difficult part in labor for me was starting. Amber relayed to my midwives that I was feeling the urge to push, and it seemed in an instant everyone was in the room. My husband and mom, my midwives Doran and Jodi, a student midwife named Samantha, and Amber all surrounded the bed. Everyone in the room said I didn’t show much loss of control, but I sure was starting to feel like I was losing it inside. I felt like I had wild eyes, that I had to escape. I can't adequately describe how intense the last few contractions were right before delivery. I wondered how much longer I could go on, I was starting to feel desperate inside for it to be over. In the midst of the most intense contractions, I heard the voices of my midwives praying over me, Mom proclaiming Scripture, and Timothy telling me I was almost done. Their voices lifted me up, reassured me, and helped me get through the most difficult moments. I felt the Lord’s presence in a real way during this labor and birth, it’s a remarkable feeling! It's so amazing to think that the God of the universe wants to be involved in and lead us through something so beautiful as the birth process that He created, and He wants to help us get through those hard moments of birthing!
I remember uttering at some point that I want to be checked again and the midwives said they didn’t need to, that I was about to crown, and that I should be thinking about where I want to birth. I couldn’t believe we were almost done! I had delivered on a birth stool with my first two babies, and I was standing up in front of the toilet with my third baby (her labor was long, but delivery was fast! I didn’t make it back to the bedroom before she was born!) and I was determined to be on or near the bed to deliver this baby, for comfort!
I felt like my pushes were kind of weak and ineffective because I was so tired. They coached me a bit and told me to lift my left leg up and to the side. Oh that was hard! This pushing was hard, I was on the cusp of time, it felt like forever, and finally he came out all the way! I gave out my one and only yell that entire labor, just as I finally felt the rest of his body coming out! I turned around, Timothy came over beside me, and they handed my baby to me while I was still on my knees. He was so quiet, so peaceful! They told me to rub him and talk to him, I thought there was a problem or trouble with his breathing, though there wasn’t, he was just very peaceful and quiet and didn’t cry for a whole half hour or more. While holding him there, I suddenly remembered that we needed to look and see what he was (we didn’t find out the sex during pregnancy) and I got to shout it out! It’s a boy!!!!
|Russell a few minutes after birth|
|Amber helping me with after pains|
|After the third stage and nursing him some, they did the newborn exam|
|Timothy weighed Russell; 10 # 10 oz.!|
|Midwife Jodi checking on Russell|
|Lots of hair!|
|Time to snuggle!|
|Mom holding Russell for the first time|
|Daddy and Russell|
|A picture by my Midwife Doran|
|This is the day after his birth.|
The children got to see Russell right away after the birth, and I thought is was so amazing to show them their new little baby! They were pretty stunned, Claire looked excited!
|Midwives Jodi and Doran at Russell's 3 day home checkup|
|A blessing from the Lord, a reward from Him! Psalm 127:3-5|
|In his special shirt|
|I love tiny baby feet!|
|My sweet mom holding Russell! She's been here through it all with us!|
|Claire, almost 6|
|Wesley, 4 1/2|
|Violet, almost 2|
|Baby's 1st Christmas!|
|Our blessed family of six! I can't believe it hardly!|
|We love you Russell! Psalm 22:9-10|
Thanks for reading our story!